place of nathan.

Today i realized i have developed a bad habit.

I am grinding my teeth, clenching my jaw muscles. I’m not thinking about it, i’m just doing it.

It’s not like I want to–it’s like an involuntary action. I am trying to relax, but i keep wanting to tighten my jaw. My jaw is killing me! I never realized i was doing it until my jaw started to ache a little bit. but i keep going back to it, and so my jaw is hurting more and more.

That got me thinking…how many things in my life are like this–involuntary actions i don’t even think about? like, adjusting the water temperature this morning in the shower. i don’t remember turning it on. i don’t remember even getting in the shower. it was just all kinda routine and involuntary. sure, my mind was working a bit, but i didn’t really think about what i was doing.
Then i got to thinking, how many things in my life are like this and affect my relationship with God?

I realized that i never knew i was clenching my jaw until i had pain. i was doing it before, but don’t know why. How many things in my life am i doing which i don’t feel any pain right now–but are they going to bite me in the butt later?

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